My 23rd birthday MMM - Big Cad.mp3

[00:00.000] 作词 : Big Cad
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Big Cad
[00:02.000] 编曲 : Big Cad
[00:21.030]Life swinging in back and forth
[00:23.190]I need a reason to keep my head up high
[00:27.360]I 'm tired of trying yeah
[00:31.170]These struggles got me feeling at lost
[00:33.330]I need a voice to tell me left or right
[00:37.410]And shed a light on me
[00:40.830]我还记得去年生日许的愿望
[00:42.750]我说“希望所有爱我的人健康”
[00:44.760]其实还有一个愿望不敢扛在肩上
[00:47.250]幻想沉默可以当治疗执念的偏方
[00:49.890]please wake me up cuz September's gonna end (该叫醒我了 九月已经结束了)
[00:52.770]I got sins but now I ain't trying to repent （知道我有罪 但我现在无法悔过）
[00:54.810]我只想把它现在记录下来写进歌里
[00:57.390]I hate yes man你不喜欢也不必客气我只想说
[01:00.900]你们在网上看到的只是一半的我
[01:03.450]其实连一半也没有不过我懒得说
[01:05.640]犯了错的 rapper这故事大家看得多
[01:08.100]所以才不会在乎是谁跟风煽的火
[01:10.950]毕竟社会压力大我也理解
[01:13.140]所以大家才想看点有猛料的系列
[01:15.840]卧室到厨房她和我吵得激烈
[01:18.060]一气之下把刀架我脖子上说你真 tm不要—
[01:21.570]这细节够劲爆吗
[01:23.160]从我心头挖的肉这够你们笑吗
[01:25.950]笑完就滚吧我也没想你们逗留
[01:28.260]留下来听我接着唱的才是我的朋友
[01:30.780]Speaking of which I feel like losing too much（说到这个 其实我失去了很多）
[01:33.270]有些是落井下石有些出名摆架子
[01:35.880]其实我很受伤但我不好意思说
[01:38.130]只能安慰自己世界就是狗比君子多
[01:40.770]而且身边好多人他们都放弃了
[01:42.960]跟我说 Cad还做专辑呢别 tm装逼了
[01:45.630]你有着学历和绝技干嘛还要倔脾气
[01:48.420]学完乐理学乐器不如放下心里芥蒂
[01:51.450]Oh sh*t刚才这句押的有点炸
[01:53.670]再去想那些 bullsh*t真的会让我头变大
[01:56.250]但说真的除了在鼓点里塞八个 bar
[01:58.590]我的过去现在未来哪里都装不下
[02:01.140]Life swinging in back and forth
[02:04.260]I need a reason to keep my head up high
[02:08.430]I'm tired of trying yeah
[02:12.240]These struggles got me feeling at lost
[02:14.400]I need a voice to tell me left or right
[02:18.450]And shed a light on me
[02:20.400]I don't know if I ain' t writing songs what should I do (我不知道除了写歌我还能做什么)
[02:23.220]Maybe sitting in the office listening to ice cube（可能坐在办公室里摸鱼听听ice cube）
[02:25.680]But I knew this ain' t my ting since I was eighteen（但自从我十八岁我就知道我不是这样的人）
[02:27.780]I said to my parents I ain't never gon be someone like u（当我告诉父母 我不会成为他们）
[02:30.810]And once I got inspired I can rap on any beat any speed（只要我有灵感 什么伴奏什么速度我都能唱）
[02:33.720]Sh*t is pure organic and I don't need no GPT（都是有机的内容 不需要ai）
[02:35.820]But maybe I'm getting way too obsessed with that（但可能我过于痴迷了）
[02:38.640]Ignored my girl's feelings now I had to face with that（忽略了她的感情 现在必须要面对）
[02:41.280]And I said sorry sorry I'm truly sorry（方法就是“对不起 对不起 真的对不起”）
[02:44.340]I said it three times what u want me to do more（“我已经说了三遍了 你还想让我干嘛”）
[02:46.590]Emotionally numb feel my words are getting pseudo（内心麻木 我自己都觉得说的话都是虚伪的）
[02:49.110]We cry, f**k, cry again, trapped inside the loophole（哭了就炒菜，抄完又哭， 陷入无限循环）
[02:52.080]And now I gotta treat her like a stranger（现在必须把她当陌生人了）
[02:54.030]Before I know how to coexist with my anxious（在我学会和自己的焦虑共处之前）
[02:56.520]Mentality dunno what's ahead of me（不知道前方什么在等着我）
[02:58.650]Celebrate my 23rd birthday overwhelmingly（忧心忡忡的度过23岁生日）
[03:01.260]Dark thoughts got me feeling suicidal（黑暗的想法让我有了紫砂的倾向）
[03:03.660]I look around, no allies there's only rivals（环顾四周没有盟友 只有对手）
[03:06.210]I thought that people around me keep the same way as I know（还以为周围的人都不会变）
[03:08.640]But Judas always snitch, I don;'t trust no disciples（但总会有犹大告密 所以我不相信所谓的使徒）
[03:11.250]And I gotta do this on my own without you（现在必须在没有你的时候做到这一切）
[03:13.950]Tryna celebrate no one telling me how to（也不知道该如何庆祝）
[03:16.020]So I wrote this strand of thoughts third days（所以只能在生日三天前）
[03:18.810]before my lonely 23rd birthday（把思绪的碎片都写进歌里）