Wondering (How To Believe) - R.A. the Rugged Man/David Myles.mp3

[00:00.000] 作词 : R.A. Thorburn
[00:00.085] 作曲 : R.A. Thorburn
[00:00.170]We're al- we're all wondering, how to believe
[00:10.802]I'm wondering about the horrors in the world that we witness
[00:14.355]And what's the purpose of our babies being born into sickness
[00:16.967]My cold world of stalactites and spikes of icicles
[00:19.788]In a house of disease and handicap blind cripples
[00:22.662]I watched half my family die , the shit we been through
[00:25.326]I lost my brother, my sister, my cousin, my nephew
[00:28.043]I watched the hearse come when my sister lost her first son
[00:30.864]The tragedies in life are the lessons that we learn from
[00:33.711]We're all wondering (Yeah)
[00:38.387]How to believe (How to believe)
[00:44.004]We're all wondering
[00:49.724]How to believe
[00:55.106]We're all won-
[00:55.759]A freshman girl named Jenny had a school crush
[00:58.554]She hit up his Facebook She finally got the guts
[01:01.166]To her surprise he replied and he asked to meet up
[01:03.987]And he was fast hands all on her she couldn't keep up
[01:06.600](We're all won-)
[01:06.887]She said slow down he said no way it's about to go down
[01:09.551]Jenny tried to push him off he shoved her to the ground
[01:12.399]She tried to bite him and fight him with nowhere to run, hide
[01:15.011]He overpowered her and pounded and thrusted inside
[01:17.728]He busted inside tonight a piece of Jennifer died
[01:20.366]When he was done she walked away as she stumbled and cried
[01:23.161]Don't want the papers to name her or a neighborhood to shame her
[01:26.191]She didn't tell her parents she was scared that they would blame her
[01:28.830]A month went by depression and self-hatred
[01:31.468]Seeing flashbacks of being forcefully penetrated
[01:34.133]The face of the rapist in her brain she can't take it
[01:36.954]Looking through a drawer for a razorblade but not to shave with
[01:40.010](We're all won-won-won)
[01:40.245]Her blood leaked down the sink faucet
[01:42.622]Her life ended still the rape was never reported
[01:45.365]That's why the rapist coward was never outed
[01:47.690]In fact he remained free and even bragged about it
[01:50.642]Told his friends about this hot fling with this hot thing
[01:53.516]Around town he was the man, the school jock, prom king
[01:56.311]The nerve with him, woman in town they worshipped him
[01:58.897]The worst part is that Jenny was only his first Victim
[02:01.875]We're all wondering
[02:07.230]How to believe (How to believe)
[02:12.324]We're all wondering (Yeah, yeah)
[02:17.888]How to believe (How to believe)
[02:23.373]Yo
[02:23.818]Now our parents are pill popping unapologetic and the neighborhoods are infested, the heroin epidemic
[02:29.434]And little Eric started cutting classes and then the heroin entered his bloodstream through his nasal passage
[02:35.233]And every time his mom looked inside his eyes she would cry
[02:37.924]Beady eyed, pupils small, nose runny, mouth dry
[02:40.536]Picking scabs off his body everyday getting high
[02:43.357]Glory of the euphoria nausea when it's missing
[02:45.943]No Resistin' the itchin' for a fixin' of the addiction
[02:48.843]His momma looking through his baby pictures and reminiscin'
[02:51.533]So his mom got him rehab, it got him sober
[02:54.250]He went back to high school tryin' to get his diploma
[02:57.019]It appeared this nightmare might be finally over
[02:59.788]Then he sniffed a bad batch and He fell into a coma
[03:02.662]Six months in a vegetative state no closure
[03:05.431]Complications in his lungs then he died from Pneumonia
[03:08.330]Mommas baby boy born innocent and wholesome
[03:10.890]Used to change his diapers and breastfeed him and hold him
[03:13.764]She reminisce of little league when Eric hit a home run
[03:16.402]Why should a mother have to live to bury her own son I'm wondering
[03:20.007]We're all wondering
[03:24.396]How to believe (How to believe)
[03:29.672]We're all wondering (Yeah, yeah)
[03:35.419]How to believe (Yeah)
[03:40.931]We're all wondering
[03:46.417]How to believe (How to believe)
[03:51.667]We're all won-