Selfish - Dave/James Blake.mp3

[00:00.000] 作词 : Dave/James Blake
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Dave/James Blake
[00:16.999] What if I'm selfish?
[00:19.168] What if I'm the reason behind it?
[00:21.944] What if I'm overprotected with family because of how mine is?
[00:24.794] What if I'm jealous?
[00:26.594] Maybe that's just making me nervous
[00:29.528] What if my effort of pulling you closer, pushing you further
[00:32.447] What if I'm selfish?
[00:34.376] What if the reason they call me the greatest
[00:37.267] Is also the reason that me and you living on different pages
[00:40.215] What if I'm too much?
[00:42.141] What if I settled and I didn't fight?
[00:43.975] What if my fear of doing it wrong's the reason I haven't been doing it right?
[00:47.901] What if I'm selfish?
[00:49.860] What if the kids just wanna be kids
[00:51.711] And don't wanna live in and out of the news
[00:53.690] And chill and don't even wanna be rich
[00:55.620] And what if I'm so self-centered
[00:57.305] That I don't even realize what I could miss
[00:59.486] And what if I'm
[01:01.666] What if I falling in the abyss
[01:03.396] Maybe it
[01:07.246] Maybe it thought, maybe it day
[01:09.247] Maybe it too many nights in LA
[01:11.058] Look at the house it sorry and still
[01:12.996] All of the feelings we hit in the hills
[01:15.067] Maybe it's you, maybe it's me
[01:16.924] Maybe the media or the provoking
[01:18.632] Gave you my heart, I laid it bare
[01:21.214] Funny you went and you poked it
[01:22.651] Why if it's better with me out of way?
[01:24.666] Why if it's better with me out of
[01:26.475] Like why if it's better with me out of way?
[01:28.442] Why if I'm poison, why if I'm cancer
[01:30.401] Why if I'm dangerous and I'm wild
[01:32.273] Look in my eyes and see it in a child
[01:34.176] What if he's broken, what if he's scared
[01:36.220] What if he's ostracized and vilified
[01:38.411] See peace is just an illusion
[01:39.988] Ain't got a home, I live in confusion
[01:41.961] Why if I'm selfish?
[01:44.274] Forever, forever, forever
[01:47.859] I manage the symptoms forever
[01:51.993] You can love how you want
[01:55.326] I know to give is no love
[01:59.610] But can you settle for a second?
[02:02.883] Let go of your idea of heaven
[02:07.659] I know it's a love
[02:10.365] But it might be all that I got
[02:14.861] I wanna throw myself in
[02:19.630] Snap off the mask
[02:22.986] I wanna clone that sin
[02:26.756] And a love that lasts
[02:30.427] I wanna escape the way
[02:34.096] Go with you to the carriage
[02:38.219] I wanna give you my life
[02:41.499] Or at least something to try
[02:46.556] But what if I'm still
[02:48.846] I've done a lot of things I regret
[02:50.461] Like announcing I'll split on a text
[02:51.809] Don't know why but I still buy gifts for my ex
[02:54.330] Watching her stories to see if she checks
[02:56.041] I'm a mess, I don't know if my head's in a game
[02:57.902] She told me, don't mention her name
[02:59.904] I'm suggesting the same, I'ma get through the pain
[03:01.789] When I see the sunshine, gotta get through the rain
[03:03.658] Back full of trauma I left on the train
[03:05.663] I'm ashamed for the days that I said that I changed
[03:07.579] I'm a cheat, sat in a therapist chair crying like a baby
[03:10.249] In the middle of a Harley Street
[03:11.894] Like I'm fighting a sickness that I can't beat
[03:13.954] I'm this low, and then I go mad
[03:15.892] Reflection telling me I'm just like my dad
[03:17.703] And this white woman telling me it ain so bad
[03:19.987] Middle of my sentence she cut me off like
[03:21.812] Sorry David we don have any more time
[03:23.655] The appointment till 4
[03:24.571] And it 3 bro I feel like she wouldn even care
[03:27.057] If I die man I try to do this therapy shit
[03:28.926] Man, I try to do this therapy shit
[03:30.359] Bro, I know, wouldn't even say I'm depressed
[03:32.453] But I'm low in the grove, in the casino, on the edge where I rode
[03:34.635] I've got too many sins to atone
[03:36.524] And a voice in my head, like, at this point, like
[03:38.790] At this point, bro, you should've been rich, like
[03:40.793] At this point, bro, you should've had kids, like
[03:42.712] At this point, should've built you a life, like
[03:44.558] Look around you, don't you feel you're behind, like
[03:46.449] Look around you, don't you feel you're behind, like
[03:48.413] Look around you, don't you feel like, black?
[03:50.949] What if I never find love?
[03:52.473] Don't know if it's scarier, the four of us two together
[03:54.858] Or being alone, I'm so used to being alone
[03:58.265] What if I'm somebody nobody wants?
[04:00.021] What if I'm damaged or what if I waited too long
[04:02.160] And I'm old on me?
[04:02.824] What if I'm cold on me?
[04:03.837] What if I cut off the hand that I hold on me?
[04:05.892] What if I'm rapidly spiraling, tired and jaded
[04:08.574] Or what if I'm faded or what if anxiety's growing inside me
[04:11.340] That I might have left all my besties behind me
[04:13.383] Or what if I'm scared as I touch 27
[04:15.153] That you don't appear in my idea of heaven
[04:17.211] Or what if I'm, what if I'm, what if I'm selfish?