Black Winter Day - Jedi Mind Tricks.mp3

[00:00.00] Torn apart now
[00:02.94]I cannot have this combination
[00:06.48]And fusion, of your elixir
[00:11.37]Torn apart now
[00:13.02]These are the choices we made
[00:16.47]Do I follow or walk away
[00:22.83]Yeah, most of my adult life I've been torn into two
[00:27.12]If you love me, then I love you and this song is for you
[00:29.61]It's tight hard when you know that your sick
[00:31.65]And your shorty seein' you as an emotional wreck
[00:34.08]The closer I get, it's like the farther I feel
[00:36.72]And my heart has turned into this heavy armour and steel
[00:39.15]It's hard to be real, hard to listen to the dumb shit
[00:42.42]And I take a lot of pills 'cause it numbs shit
[00:44.79]I wish I had another path to follow
[00:46.77]Wish that I could be a man and learn to pass the bottle
[00:49.23]A graphic novel, my future a box or an urn
[00:52.44]Havin' dreams about death, but I'm not that concerned
[00:54.87]And I'm diseased, through the seasons they turn
[00:56.88]Watchin' leaves from the trees turn disease and they burn
[00:59.31]I'm eager to learn, but I'm holdin' my breath
[01:01.86]And everyday alive is just another closer to death
[01:06.93]Torn apart now
[01:08.58]I cannot have this combination
[01:12.12]And fusion, of your elixir
[01:17.01]Torn apart now
[01:18.69]These are the choices we made
[01:22.11]Do I follow or walk away
[01:27.18]Yeah, I've been alive longer then I expected to be
[01:32.76]And took care of everything that's expected of me
[01:35.58]Took care of my girl and my mother
[01:37.74]I told her that I'm always here and I love her
[01:40.26]I handle shit differently 'cause I'm grown no
[01:42.99]And the truth is that I'd rather be alone now
[01:45.36]I'd rather not have to deal with the day
[01:47.43]And I hate when people ask me how I'm feelin' today
[01:50.37]My brother Rasul, we had a beef and grudge
[01:52.95]But we grew up together, cousin, so it's peace and love
[01:55.44]I wish all the best, I wish all the shine
[01:57.99]I wish I didn't wanna offer my thoughts with a nine
[02:00.66]I'm thoughtful and kind, but I'm evil alas
[02:03.00]But everything I love has turned to a tedious task
[02:05.55]I feel that life a waiting game for people to pass
[02:08.16]But nobody ever want you to see through the mask
[02:12.57]Torn apart now
[02:14.76]I cannot have this combination
[02:17.76]And fusion, of your elixir
[02:22.65]Torn apart now
[02:24.30]These are the choices we made
[02:27.72]Do I follow or walk away
[02:32.79]Yeah, I don't wanna be a burden to y'all
[02:37.92]I just wanna know exactly what my purpose is for
[02:40.86]I feel like nothin' I do is ever right
[02:43.74]And that I'm actin' a fool another night
[02:45.96]And I admit, I don't take care of myself
[02:47.94]So I do a lot of thinkin' and preparing myself
[02:50.49]'Cause the fact is my father died young and I might, too
[02:53.52]And it ain't any way to tell what I might do
[02:56.22]I don't wanna leave my mother behind
[02:58.11]I don't want for her to cry, because the struggle is mine
[03:01.29]I don't want for her to grind no more
[03:03.15]I don't want for her to work a 9-to-5 no more
[03:05.67]I ain't have to work a ****ing 9-to-5 befor
[03:08.13]So I'm tryin' to get this money to provide for y'all
[03:10.59]And if the shit ain't work out and I'm suddenly gon
[03:13.20]Just remember that the mother****er love isn't gon
[03:15.69]Pazman
[03:16.65]Torn apart now
[03:20.40]I cannot have this combination
[03:23.40]And fusion, of your elixir
[03:28.29]Torn apart now
[03:29.94]These are the choices we made
[03:33.36]Do I follow or walk away