Pathways - Mic Reckless.mp3

[00:00.461]Which way will I take?
[00:03.276]Which road will bring me back to hope?
[00:06.088]My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
[00:11.705]Which way will I take?
[00:14.505]Which road will bring me back to hope?
[00:17.558]My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
[00:22.410]To my family dearest
[00:23.408]I won't be here by the time that you hear this
[00:25.695]I took the nearest pack of painkillers and I've never been so serious
[00:28.251]And babe I know the chances are you'll probably find this first
[00:31.071]And if you're reading this
[00:32.093]I'm sorry I'm typing my final words
[00:33.870]I hope...no, I know you'll end up hating me with every single fibre you have inside of your nerves
[00:39.706]I left you with a baby - maybe I should have tried for her
[00:41.740]But trust me, all I've done is get in the way of a life you deserve
[00:44.794]How can I live to look you in the eye knowing you've got to scrape by with the money you have inside of your purse
[00:50.934]My career isn't paying so why am I trying to write a verse?
[00:53.491]I can't support our little angel in this unstable line of work
[00:56.309]And without you by my side I'm done with my time on earth
[00:58.853]I'm feeling my life's a curse if I'm here the cycle turns
[01:01.913]My examples of what not to do when growing up is how I've learned
[01:04.716]So don't let the children hear this so they know what life is first, please
[01:08.530]Which way will I take?
[01:10.820]Which road will bring me back to hope?
[01:13.889]My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
[01:19.254]Which way will I take?
[01:22.307]Which road will bring me back to hope?
[01:25.115]My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
[01:30.741]My dear kids
[01:31.755]I don't know how to start this
[01:33.544]Your dad's a **** up - a stupid ****ing bastard
[01:36.595]A stupid ****ing....arrrrgh
[01:38.133]I'm supposed to be a parent
[01:39.406]Can't say goodbye without getting pissed off and swearing
[01:41.683]And it's okay if you hate me - I wouldn't like me either
[01:44.250]I didn't want to do this
[01:46.028]I didn't want to leave ya
[01:47.326]But mummy said I'm useless and I'm starting to believe her
[01:50.154]I hope you're ****ing happy bitch - I wish I didn't meet ya
[01:53.222]I never wanted this
[01:54.495]I didn't want to quit
[01:56.019]I'm sorry kids but I don't want to live
[01:58.027]I got nothing to offer
[01:59.296]I wish I had a lot to give
[02:01.088]Wish I didn't have such a ****ed up family when I was a kid
[02:04.411]I wish God had given me a brain
[02:05.947]I wish I wasn't in pain
[02:07.472]I wish this vodka could wash it away
[02:10.546]What can I say?
[02:11.559]In another life we might meet
[02:13.346]Just promise that you won't be like me
[02:15.848]Which way will I take?
[02:18.656]Which road will bring me back to hope?
[02:21.466]My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
[02:27.073]Which way will I take?
[02:29.878]Which road will bring me back to hope?
[02:32.947]My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
[02:38.290]What the **** am I doing here?
[02:40.064]Why is my crib candlelit?
[02:41.091]And where's my ****ing phone?
[02:42.619]I need to call an ambulance
[02:44.154]If I ****ing die here I ain't coming back from it
[02:46.695]Open your ****ing eyes close your
[02:48.483]Everything's going black I think it's actually happening
[02:51.804]What a ****ing change
[02:53.091]And this is just an accident
[02:54.370]I love my family so much
[02:55.900]Can't live to see my dad upset
[02:57.419]Need to be there for my little daughter
[02:59.221]I thought I coulda brought you happiness
[03:00.496]My brother's in prison
[03:02.043]I'm supposed to visit
[03:03.563]When the screws bring him the news
[03:05.097]How's he gonna handle it?
[03:06.373]He just wants me to succeed
[03:07.905]I don't need this rappin' shit
[03:09.424]I've been taking tablets for weeks
[03:10.945]The last time I saw my sister I freaked out and smashed her whip
[03:13.766]Threw her down a set of stairs
[03:15.048]And since then I haven't slept
[03:16.325]Told myself my life wasn't supposed to happen yet
[03:19.146]I can't maintain or manage this
[03:20.428]Am I paranoid or passionate?
[03:22.710]We all suffer deep down
[03:23.724]Inside we're all battlin' but don't want to admit it
[03:26.516]We're blind to what we're damaging
[03:28.300]Anger is contagious
[03:29.821]And they just blame the bitch
[03:31.367]But I've always felt like this even before I had a spliff
[03:34.169]Just too ashamed to say it to your face because I'm a man and shit
[03:36.721]And that ain't masculine
[03:38.512]And I find this kinda embarassing
[03:42.014]****ing baffling
[03:43.554]Every relationship I've ever had has had a tragic end
[03:47.076]When it was only just beginning
[03:48.606]Cause mum you ****ed me up and now I have no trust in women
[03:51.418]I'm just waiting for my girl to cheat
[03:52.935]That's how little trust is given
[03:54.216]I can't make my girl a single mum that's ****ing unforgiving
[03:56.756]I love you to the moon and back
[03:58.792]So we ain't married yet
[04:00.066]There ain't a day that goes by where I don't imagine it
[04:04.120]You looking fire in the baddest dress
[04:05.911]Carrying our little madam in the back of the chariot
[04:09.711]While I admire your fashion sense
[04:11.973]That's the life I had in mind
[04:13.260]I applied for this
[04:14.538]I don't wanna die
[04:16.327]Now panic's set in
[04:18.080]Goodbye to everything I haven't said
[04:20.381]Which way will I take?
[04:23.173]Which road will bring me back to hope?
[04:25.732]My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
[04:31.328]Which way will I take?
[04:34.158]Which road will bring me back to hope?
[04:36.946]My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
[04:42.823]So far from
[04:43.839]So far from
[04:45.377]So far from where I wanna be
[04:48.175]So far from
[04:49.696]So far from
[04:50.970]So far from where I wanna be
[04:54.039]So far from
[04:55.069]So far from
[04:56.614]So far from where I wanna be
[04:59.660]So far from
[05:00.688]So far from
[05:02.478]So far from where I wanna be