All In My Head (feat. Royce Da 5'9" and Kobe) - Joe Budden.mp3

[00:23.60]Maybe it started with Slaughterhouse, or was it tour life?
[00:27.10]Maybe it wouldn’t had started at all if I had your life
[00:29.93]Maybe it was needed or I was thinking immorally
[00:32.87]If I wasn’t myself could I say I gave the fans All of Me?
[00:36.05]Can’t decide if I’m more ashamed of what this all mean
[00:39.08]Than I am of ignoring all the lessons that was taught to me
[00:41.96]Headed up field but couldn’t dodge the last tackler
[00:45.29]High to the floor we thinkin moves her ass backwards
[00:48.23]How could I do with no regrets at all, willing to bet it all
[00:51.16]Not realize that quicker demise, how could I neglect it all?
[00:53.88]I’m so seasonal, some of you knew what to bring back
[00:57.02]With a heart this cold, how’d ya’ll think I’d be receptive to fall
[01:00.05]I’m plenty comfortable when danger’s around
[01:02.62]And even more so when strangers around
[01:04.70]In a bigger picture, was sicker down on my triggers
[01:07.12]And all the alarm enforcers
[01:08.48]Down to a bitch, that I’m about for drugs and liquor or the harm it causes
[01:11.97]Life and death, I tried to lynch myself
[01:14.45]Thought I could keep it all a secret, I convinced myself
[01:17.28]But really the folk that loved me, they could tell I was loakin
[01:20.37]I couldn’t see him, cry me a river cuz it fell in the ocean
[01:23.83]Numb to my words now, maybe felt it was open
[01:26.35]I cut so many people who was through, I need help with devotion
[01:29.24]That’s just some of the things I ask my Lord the savior
[01:32.50]And when He calls to me, well He have done us all a favor
[01:35.34]How did I make it here?
[01:39.87]Who I are?
[01:43.96]I feel so lost
[01:46.71]Now I’m not seeing it clear
[01:52.34]Is it my fault?
[01:55.26]Is it my fault?
[01:58.09]It’s all in my head
[02:00.06]I’m looking around like this can’t be happening
[02:01.93]Round of applause for the angry rappers
[02:04.83]Lord my girl cried me a flood then me a river
[02:08.42]That’s love depending on me when I’m a dependent on liquor
[02:11.31]I’m up in the shoe store, she got no love to show
[02:13.74]You ever look at a bitch she was ****ing behind your bitch back like **** I was ****ing you for, come on
[02:18.30]I’m an artist so I’m intelligent
[02:19.41]I would tell you to do some soul searchin
[02:21.47]But it’s hangin up in my closet with your skeleton
[02:23.55]That’s gotta be a god's work, even a diamond gotta be polished first
[02:26.86]The quarter is on the loose and I ain’t been out here getting my dollars’ worth
[02:29.89]I had to remove the goggles first
[02:31.27]To see through the sippin patrone and 50 phonies fool
[02:33.60]I need to go get me a kidney doner
[02:35.92]Guru, Nate Dogg, go head blink your eye
[02:38.87]Your doctor told me you close, go ahead drink and die
[02:41.91]Buried under the stone where the patrone 5th sits by
[02:44.80]That reads hella somebody who never wanted to be this guy
[02:48.15]How did I make it here?
[02:52.61]Who I are?
[02:55.94]I feel so lost
[02:59.24]Now I’m not seeing it clear
[03:04.35]Is it my fault?
[03:07.99]Is it my fault?
[03:10.26]It’s all in my head
[03:11.74]They say knowledge is power, great cuz every day I learn
[03:14.73]As of late been having revelations bout this hate turn
[03:17.67]Hate the way they judge me, 2 I got the case adjourned
[03:20.81]Hated the belly of the beast to I became it's tapeworm
[03:23.60]When I said I’d stop getting high tried to say it’s done
[03:26.68]No, I’m the type to walk through the fire to check the way it burn
[03:29.46]They say my brain is off, I say how can it be?
[03:32.61]If I’m out my mind how can I be in sanity?
[03:35.54]The people used to say that I was scared of progress
[03:38.59]They don’t know how hard a bitch tried to advance
[03:41.32]But I don’t know who’s more to blame
[03:42.93]Is it them for really not knowing me
[03:44.19]Or is it me for never really giving them a chance?
[03:47.08]Get too close, be too big of a threat
[03:49.30]Now it’s been little than no time
[03:50.57]Thinking why I ain’t get rid of you yet
[03:52.94]Gotta recognize my maturity
[03:54.61]Gotta see I’m grown
[03:56.24]Letting my skeletons out the closet just so I never be alone
[03:59.37]Since I got trust issues I won’t discuss with you
[04:02.53]Besides God tell me who the ****’s supposed to save you
[04:05.31]Pop one, have one man to man, what’s going after the light’s out?
[04:08.29]Somewhere in his head probly feel it in his place too
[04:11.32]Plus more people will see me soon
[04:13.80]I mean I’ll be on national tv soon
[04:16.79]So when I ask if people I have around are cancer for me
[04:19.73]That’s 4 million more that might be able to answer for me
[04:22.70]Joe
[04:23.51]How did I make it here?
[04:27.93]Who I are?
[04:31.32]I feel so lost
[04:34.57]Now I’m not seeing it clear
[04:40.03]Is it my fault?
[04:42.37]Is it my fault?
[04:44.97]It’s all in my head